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Aug. 19th, 2010 @ 04:29 pm
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i wonder if i did the right thing. Whats the price of each choice you make in life. I must ponder this further. |
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Mar. 22nd, 2010 @ 03:00 pm
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need some alone time.
No dogs, no kids
me and a video game controller.
or me and janice.
Ill take either |
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HAD A GREAT START TO MY DAY!!!! |
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safe
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Feb. 12th, 2010 @ 03:56 pm
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I hate coming on here. It doesn't feel safe |
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I love my wife. I am so happy that we are back on track. I mean just look at the picture, isnt that just the cutest couple. |
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Its tough but its all worth it
Jan. 28th, 2010 @ 03:52 pm
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EPONINE
Don't you fret, M'sieur Marius
I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now
You're here, that's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
And rain will make the flowers grow.
MARIUS
But you will live, 'Ponine - dear God above,
If I could heal your wounds with words of love.
EPONINE
Just hold me now, and let it be.
Shelter me, comfort me
MARIUS
You would live a hundred years
If I could show you how
I won't desert you now...
EPONINE
The rain can't hurt me now
This rain will wash away what's past
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
I'll sleep in your embrace at last.
The rain that brings you here
Is Heaven-blessed!
The skies begin to clear
And I'm at rest
A breath away from where you are
I've come home from so far
So don't you fret, M'sieur Marius
I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now
That's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
MARIUS(in counterpoint)
Hush-a-bye, dear Eponine,
You won't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt you now
I'm here
I will stay with you
Till you are sleeping
EPONINE
And rain...
MARIUS
And rain...
EPONINE
Will make the flowers...
MARIUS
Will make the flowers... grow...
Jan. 26th, 2010 @ 05:30 pm
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I have alot of shitty things going on in my life. However, i have to say that i may be very happy. I love my job. My kids. I am healthier then i have been in awhile and i keep losing weight. I think everything is going to be ok. It just may take awhile to prove it to myself.
Jan. 19th, 2010 @ 12:45 pm
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You know its time i re think rent
Rent is like living each day as your last. It has been how i lived life and sometimes because of that i may have ignored on thing or another. However, today i say fuck you angel.
TODAY FOR ME, TOMORROW FOR YOU
that is all
Jan. 11th, 2010 @ 04:38 pm
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I still haven't found it..... What is it? Some call it Nirvana, contentment, fullfillment, purpose, basically, the common thread is that higher sense of being. Why do we constantly chase it, find ourselves on the brink of the mountaintop, just to be led back down into the valley? I struggle with this more than I desire. Lately I have been blessed in so many ways, yet still, there always seems to be something missing. Even during my journeys in life, I am continually seeking that "something" that job, person, place, spiritual epiphany or hobby that will set me on fire, burning with an overwhelming joy that is evident to the world. I have caught glimpses of it throughout my life, and am on a quest to find it on a larger scale. Yet, something crossed my mind as I heard the U2 song titled, "I still haven't found what I'm looking for." My mind wandered as I let the words sink into my analytical mind.
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I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you.
I have run, I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her finger tips
It burned like fire
(I was) burning inside her.
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colours will bleed into one
Bleed into one.
But yes, I'm still running.
You broke the bonds
And you loosed the chains
Carried the cross of my shame
Oh my shame, you know I believe it.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
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A possible notion came to mind. Why am I constantly "looking for" something? Why can't I just be satisfied with life? Let's say I convince myself to be happy with my current situation. Then what will I have to strive for? Maybe we are never suppose to be completely content, maybe we are wired with a desire to climb the highest mountain and take that quest into the unknown. If we were not wired this way, what would encourage innovation, creation, and expressive art forms? Maybe the higher doesn't want us to be completely content?
I have learned so much in the last couple of weeks. I hope that will have a chance to use it.
As rent said
Times are shitty, but im pretty sure they cant get worse
Jan. 8th, 2010 @ 04:44 pm
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